But I Haven't Thought of You Lately At All, If Ever Again, A Greeting I Send To You. Short and Sweet To The Soul I Intend.

Sometimes I just feel really good. Like singing loudly in my car and hanging out with people I love. I feel better, better than I was. I still think about Coop or Ethan and feel a little sad but I'm much happier than I was. It took me a while to believe that I really needed a beak up too. I love him so much and I think I always will a little bit. I can still see myself being with him again someday in the future but right now I'm happy with what it is. Well... I do wish he put in a little more effort because he didn't even thank me for the cookies and I feel like he never wants to hang out with me or see me... but I dunno what else to do. I feel like you can only give so much love before it isn't worth it. Plus, lately I haven't been so attracted to him. So is that what he wanted? For me to forget about it and move on? I guess it's working....
I like other guys but I DO still think about Ethan and wish we could at least have something like what we had last time we were broken up. Like an understanding that we still love each other. It doesn't even feel like that at all this time. He's like a different person and I'm not sure how I feel about it all.
I'm seriously thinking about moving to LA as scary as it is. Jeff said he'd help me find a place to live and at least I would know him so I wouldn't be totally alone. Plus his brother in Central Casting just got cast on Desperate Housewives. I'm SO jealous. I need to join and do bit parts in all the major stuff. Seriously.
.Stephanie.