'Cause It Takes Something More This Time, Than Sweet, Sweet Lies.

Feeling pretty good. I don't know how often I will write in this, honestly, but if I do, then check back if you want. If not, whatevs. I feel better since Ethan and I have actually had conversations and such about what happened/is happening. I'm glad he still loves me. I love him. We are friends. That is good. Dillon can chill out because his myspace profile says he doesn't get mad/hold grudges but it's hard to believe that when he's talkin' shit and trying to high-five Julia when he finds out we break up. I think that's pretty bitch. I'm sad about it all because we used to be such good friends and since Ethan and I got back together last year he was never nice to me again. Until somewhat recently, I guess, when he started feeling lonely. But honestly, how could I feel sorry for him when I tried to be friends for so long and got nothing in return? This is the first time I've ever written about this because I didn't know how I felt about it or if I even cared. I just never wanted to talk about it really. But now that I hear about that, it sorta pisses me off. Because Ethan does care about me, and if you feel like I stole him away or something, then I'm sorry. But I tried and tried and got nothing in return so I stopped caring. I'm not opposed to becoming friends again someday but it was hard for me. To feel like I lost a friend like that.

So I pretty much hate my new room. It's not the fact that it's small or anything, it's just not mine. It's lonely and it's not my bed. I want my bed. I have new pretty sheets to put on it.

I read a story that I found tonight that Brad had written me a long time ago. It was hilarious. I remember laughing everytime I had read it before. It's just so... Brad. I mean, it's called "Stephanie's Oh-So-Disturbing, Enormously Convoluted, Overly-Inflated, Ridiculously Pretentious, But Still Vaguely Cute One-Month Anniversary Story". That's just crazy and Brad-like in itself. It talks about all our friends then like Erin and Jed, Gary, Caleb, Jello, Megan, Paul, ect... so wonderfully nostalgic. I guess it's kinda nice to look back on that stuff sometimes.
.Stephanie.