Don't Ever Go, Don't Ever Leave Me.

Sometimes it makes me sad when Dillon and Ryan make fun of me about Ethan. Also, when Dillon gets pissed off about it. I don't understand why he gets so mad. He says... well, nevermind I probably shouldn't say. But it still confuses me. I don't see any of it as a big deal really. Sometimes I do feel sort of... used I guess. Even though I know shouldn't. But I guess I've just been thinking a lot about how for most of our lives Ethan was crazy about me and invited me to a lot of things and now that we've dated I feel like he takes advantage of me and doesn't ever want me around. So that's what Dillon was getting at. Maybe it's true. Maybe I'm just paranoid.

I sort of feel bad about writing in this blog sometimes because people I talk about do read it and it probably makes them feel bad sometimes. But I feel like I have to because they're my feelings and I don't really keep a journal or tell anyone I just write here and people can choose to read it.