You're The Honey And The Moon That Lights Up My Night.

Sad. That is what I feel. Still haven't cried. It's been two full days. I wonder if that's a good thing or not. I know that it is such a deep feeling of sadness that it's just hard to show on the outside. I've written about this stuff before but I don't really care because this blog is for me and I shall write what I damn well please. But I'm sad. I guess I can do the play and hang out with my friends and sing in choir without being completely sad but when I do anything by myself, that's all I think about. He said he lost sleep before, well I'm loosing sleep now. There's still a little part of me that is like 'please please please change your mind!', but even if he did.... would I be ok with that? Would I want to get back together? Knowing me.... I'd probably put myself through that again. I should have known the first time. Love is blind. I wish I could know what he's feeling. Does he still loose sleep? Probably not. Sometimes I feel like I'm the walking dead. Like I walk with no destination. I came upon this question: Is it easier to get over someone who goes away (like Brad did) and I never have to see them? Or is it easier to get over someone who is still there, that you still hang out with and you just learn to accept it?