She Was So Free Like A Pineapple In A Tree.

So today I broke down when Ethan called me stupid. How stupid is that? I mean... at the time I was really upset but then when the tears started rolling down my face and I couldn't help them, I felt really dumb. And I think he was mad at me for being sad. He said he wasn't going to change how he acted and that he just calls people names and that's who he is and he doesn't mean it. That made me kind of mad because I wasn't asking him to change. I just got tired of being put down all the time. And never being 'put up' or something. I don't think I'm a needy girlfriend. I don't ask for things. But sometimes it would be nice to hear compliments or like... something. I dunno. Then when I realized he was mad, it made me get that weird feeling in the pit of my stomach that he was going to dump me for that. I know he wouldn't but... I dunno... I think I'm a little scared that out of the blue he'll just get tired of me again. I think boys just get bored of me. That's probably one of my worst fears. Shit. It's scary when you care about someone so much. I need to chill out.