But Are The Children Really Right Alright Alright?

Last night I had two weird dreams that seemed very real when they were over. I kind of like describing dreams that are funny or weird or good. So today I have two.
First dream was Christian from Nip/Tuck being a real docter like Dr. House. He was trying to figure out why this girl that looked a lot like Britney Spears was bleeding from every orfice of her body. He walked into another room with her and all of a sudden she was completely normal. Someone else and I walked into the room and made some sort of comment about how they should just go on a date already. So then instead of me being the person to walk out of the room with that other person, I was the Britney girl and I looked over and Christian. Then I remember being intimate with him (but I don't think we had sex) and loving him. When I woke up and just saw a picture of Christian on my space I had one of those weird I was just with you or something feelings.
The second dream lasted longer. I woke up at one point and continued it later in the night. It started off with a group of people (I'm not sure if I was there or if I was someone else) including Gob, a younger boy, a guy in this 20s, and a girl about that age as well. There was a report in the newspaper about a man getting his hand cut off in the town they lived in. (They lived in some country/beach-side town). Then it was night and the guy was walking through town when he realized that everyone was acting strange like zombies. (Yes, this is a zombie dream). The girl (who starts off looking like Portia De Rossi) is at the store buying something and the boy is in his house looking for his dog that is also acting strange. The dog who normally runs around very fast is running under the tables and counters of the kitchen at lightning speed. The boy knows that he has to kill the dog so he just throws a large knife under the counter and it spins and hits the dog in the stomach. The boy walks into the other room with Gob and the girl comes home terrified. Gob and the other two hide in the kitchen with the doors closed. They each have 1 very large knife and they wait for something to come in. Meanwhile, the other guy is running through the streets, escaping the zombies.
It was around this time that I first woke up and I jumped back into the dream with the three of them (minus Gob) during the day (when apparently the people of the town weren't zombies) and they were at the schoolhouse. Then it became night and they started running toward a hill to get away. At the top of the hill a bunch of zombies arose and they realized they were trapped. At the top one of the zombies yelled (yeah they're not real zombies) that they had a child and they would let him go if they could have the rest. They decided to just climb the hill furiously and then they grabbed the kid and had to kick all of the other zombies off the hill. Then they somehow got down and next thing I know they're runnning through the town to the beach and they are free. They can't go to another town though because the town banned anyone from coming in, infected or not.
For some reason there's a gap here as well and then Portia De Rossi turned into Gwenyth Paltrow and then it was just her and the other guy, not the kids. They were arrested by the other town's police and taken to a dark cell where they were attached under drain pipes close to the floor and dirty water surrounding them so they could just barely breath. I remember the guy (who at this point looks like Michael from Arrested Development) got loose and swung an axe on Gwenyth's chains and every time he hit them, she screamed. That was the end, I woke up for good. It wasn't ever scary, always interesting.

Now I Need A Change Of Scenery.

People like to hear/read about drama. Therefore, this blog is mostly to talk about the situations I'm in that I find sort of dramatic. If you want to read about fluffy things going on in my life you can either talk to me (in person or on lj or myspace) or read my lj or myspace blogs. Now there really isn't that much drama going on right now but I'm trying to find a job and I'm back in school and I'm actually happy about it because I felt like (and was being) a major slacker on life over winter break. Overall I was still happy because I wasn't being forced to do anything, just watching Alias and Nip/Tuck with Lauren and going to shows/parties, discovering my love of Arrested Development, and hanging out with Ethan. I was happy but I was bored. School is better for me at this time. I don't really appreciate 4 1/2 hours of Biology on Tuesdays but I'll get through it.
I love Human Sexuality. It's going to be an amazing class. I'm glad Ethan's taking it too. It makes me happy.
I've still been about on the sad side lately. Though I didn't really think of myself as acting that sad until someone told me I was. I guess I am. I think it's just being overwhelmed about not having a job or money and getting my mom and boyfriend off my back about it. I'm a little flustered. I can't keep jobs for some reason. I've had three (which is kind of a lot for an 18 year old I think) and the first one I was forced to quit because they kept taking hours away from me until I worked one day a week or none. The second I ended up not liking and tried to quit but they said they wanted me to stay so I did and then a month later they said I could quit if I still wanted to because school was conflicting with what they wanted. Then the last I was just straight up fired from because I couldn't make a shift and they didn't have anyone to cover for me. But I had school! It just didn't seem fair. I just don't want to think of myself as a bad worker. I always thought I had good people skills. So anyway I'm looking again and hopefully I'll keep this one until I transfer to a different college or something.

My Mind Races With All My Longings But Can't Keep Up With What I Got.

I am sad. I can't help it. I'm not sure if I'm really sad or if it's the birth control talking. I get sad about silly things that I know are silly but to me they are a big deal. This isn't just about things that happen with Ethan, they are things that happen with my mom or my friends. Or by myself. I'm sensitive about everyting. I cry more than I did before. I don't like it. I want to change but I also just want people to love me.