Where Your Gardens Have No Walls.

Lame lame lamelamelame.

And Through This Distemperature We See The Seasons Alter.

So Ethan reads this. I didn't know that. HI!
Ethan and I got back together. I'm happy. For a while I thought that if he wanted to get back together, I wouldn't do it. But what he said just made me forget all the reasons why I wanted to bitch him out. So that didn't really happen. That's okay though, because all is well now.
Ethan and I just fit. I mean, it may not seem like it sometimes because we get into little spats and then he breaks up with me (haha jk) but all in all, we just have so much fun together that it would be stupid to throw that all away right now. He's not the boy I'm supposed to be dating in high school, but high school's almost over. So there.

Love Rhymes With Hideous Car Wreck.

So I’ve been getting over this sadness thing. That is excellent. Prom didn’t exactly help but I do have a teensy crush on someone, which does. And if by teensy I mean regular sized. And he probably knows it too, especially since I commented on his blog. Oh there ya go, now he knows. I wouldn’t doubt it, but I honestly don’t care. He can know and that is fine. Maybe it’ll make him feel good about himself or something. Too bad he has a girlfriend. Boo. Speaking of this crush though….
STAR WARS (can I make this more obvious? no.) comes out tomorrow!!!! I am so excited I can hardly stand it. In exactly 24 hours and 35 minutes I will be about to view the final chapter of Star Wars. That is AWESOME. And insane. Ok I’m going to bed now. Ciao my lovelies.

You're The Honey And The Moon That Lights Up My Night.

Sad. That is what I feel. Still haven't cried. It's been two full days. I wonder if that's a good thing or not. I know that it is such a deep feeling of sadness that it's just hard to show on the outside. I've written about this stuff before but I don't really care because this blog is for me and I shall write what I damn well please. But I'm sad. I guess I can do the play and hang out with my friends and sing in choir without being completely sad but when I do anything by myself, that's all I think about. He said he lost sleep before, well I'm loosing sleep now. There's still a little part of me that is like 'please please please change your mind!', but even if he did.... would I be ok with that? Would I want to get back together? Knowing me.... I'd probably put myself through that again. I should have known the first time. Love is blind. I wish I could know what he's feeling. Does he still loose sleep? Probably not. Sometimes I feel like I'm the walking dead. Like I walk with no destination. I came upon this question: Is it easier to get over someone who goes away (like Brad did) and I never have to see them? Or is it easier to get over someone who is still there, that you still hang out with and you just learn to accept it?

The Good Times Are Killing Me.

What did I do wrong?

Just Between You And Me.

If you read my blog say 'Aye'. Just so I know who does. It weirds me out a little if I don't know who's reading.