Be Careful What You Wish For. You Just Might Get It All.

Since I've been using this blog for over two years, sometimes I like to go back and read about what I was doing on this day last year and the year before. It's really weird! But I realized that if I want to keep that up, I need to update this thing more for future reading.

Lately, life has been pretty good. I've been at my job for almost a year now and it's going to be sad to leave. It is just so fucking easy that it's going to be weird having a job where I actually have to work again! Haha, but seriously...

On memorial day weekend I'm going with my mom, Megan, and Megan's mom, Kim, to look at apartments and different areas of LA for us to live in. It's pretty serious business and very exciting! I found a really adorable place on Craig's List with a pool and workout room but it's a one bedroom which means Megan and I will probably have to put a sheet through the middle of the room if we want any kind of privacy, haha...

Things I need to do:
-Get headshots from Allie's dad.
-Find more apartments to look at for when we visit.
-Save more money.

I don't know what else I can do before I actually live there because I can't find a job or anything yet. I'm excited to join Central Casting though! I hope it works out. It says on the website that everyone gets work as long as you are punctual and dependable. Which I will be. I'm also willing to be anyone's bitch. Getting coffees, cleaning, ect...

Even though I'll miss this house, I can't wait to leave!
.Stephanie.

Pay Attention, Don't Be Thick, Or You're Liable To Get Licked.

"Oh god. This is when he still had a fucking gap in his teeth. I don't want to watch this anymore."

(cracking up) "YOU ARE SUCH A FUCKING BITCH!!!!!"

"Wait, rewind it. I didn't catch what he was talking about!"

"I thought you didn't want to watch it because he has a fucking gap in his mouth!"

And then I wrote it down in my blog and Megan is still laughing at me for being a "fucking bitch"...

(Half hour later)

"God, I can't stand that whistle!"

"Maybe that's why he didn't have the 'jr.' back then. He was embarassed to be like, 'Hi! I'm Robert Downey Shhunior."


(AH I'm moving to LA in less than 3 months!)
.Stephanie.

Histories Of Ages Past, Unenlightened Shadows Cast.

Last night I dreamt that I was on a swim team and for some reason Sanjaya (ew) was there and I asked him how to pronounce his name (even though I know how). It was very strange, haha.

Last night there was NO GRINDHOUSE MIDNIGHT SHOW. I was sad. It's Grindhouse! There definitely should have been a midnight show. It's the whole point of having a Grindhouse double feature. It's supposed to be late night! Oh well. Santa Rosa is lame like that sometimes.

Speaking of Santa Rosa, in the Zodiac book they are giving so many details about the Santa Rosa killings and it's totally creepy. Like how (if the Zodiac really did kill in Santa Rosa, and I'm starting to believe he did) he dumped the bodies off of Calistoga road and in the Mark West Springs area and even off Chanate. So f-ing gross. The book says "Santa Rosa" so many times I forget that I live here. It mentions College Ave, Mendocino Ave, The JC, Snoopy's Ice Arena, the Cotati offramp, and more and it's weird. Police even found Arthur Leigh Allen walking by the sight that had the most bodies dumped (I think that was off Calistoga). He was totally the Zodiac. That guy went to the JC and Sonoma State and he was most likely the Zodiac. I seriously jump when people are walking into the store and I'm reading that book.

Thus, even though Santa Rosa is famous for having creepy people (and I'm interested in that sort of thing), I am SO excited to move. It's so close! July! Hopefully Megan and I will find a place for July 1st and we won't have to stay anywhere in between. I'm completely terrified, yet really excited too. I hope people are visiting frequently because I will miss everyone! I'll visit as much as I can but it definitely won't be like a drive from Santa Cruz, and I definitely wouldn't want to do it alone.
.Stephanie.

This Is Why I'm Hot.

My sister listens to rap now, which I find very ridiculous. Even though I like it sometimes too.

Today is the laziest day of all days. I have not even gotten dressed yet! There is a 7 hour I Love New York marathon on right now. Please god, do NOT let me sit here all day, on the computer, watching I Love New York. But it'll probably happen. Until I decide to put on real clothes and venture over to Blockbuster for more Robert Downey Jr. movies.

I just bought a PS2 + Guitar Hero 2 off eBay for $200!!!! That's including shipping, bitches. I am sooo excited. There is going to be massive Guitar Hero playing over at The Kitty House. (ok, 12 Pack just swallowed a LIVE BEE. this show is so stupid.)

Last weekend, I got drunk two nights in a row and (apparently) made a fool of myself at Gary's (sort of) Going Away Party. It wasn't much of a party but just Gary, Sarah, and I totally wasted and making fools of ourselves while Trevor, Cameron, Charlie, Scott, Tom, Erin, Megan, Khouansiva, and Julia all watched. I don't remember parts of it except getting massages from Erin and Khouan, Sarah backing it up onto Scott Jensen, and lying across Trevor and Cameron's laps and playing Harry Potter Scene-It. I also remember being pretty good at it considering how cross-faded I was. Erin told me that I referred to myself as a "Happy Cat" and made Trevor uncomfortable (not like that's THAT hard to do). Gary thinks I want to have sex with him and I most definitely DO NOT. He is very nice but NO. That's just it. No thank you.

Also, I've been smoking cigarettes a couple times a week and I'm not sure if that's a very good thing but it's happened. I just do it whenever Lauren and Julia are outside smoking and if it's a social thing. I like it. So shoot me.

This is a very random post but I've literally done nothing today so I thought I'd update.
.Stephanie.

When There's No Time For Joking, There's A Hole In The Plan.

Stressful things. Bothering me. I want to move. Uncaring person pretending to be the opposite. He writes everything that I feel about him but I doubt he knows it. School is not where I want to be at this point in my life. I need more time for myself. I think too much about stressful things. I miss my mom. Sometimes life likes to fuck with you. If I listen to my mom and follow that silly secret I will be successful.
.Stephanie.

You Know What You Want And That Makes You Just Like Me.

Yes it's midnight and I just saw Factory Girl again, I'm watching Adult Swim, and now I'm doing a scurvey. Schweet.

[1] What is your middle name?: JoAnna
[2] What color is your mailbox: white?
[3] Last time you had sex: four months ago
[4] Have you ever hit a deer?: no! thank goodness.
[5] Do you have to drive over a bridge to get home?: no just a freeway.
[6] Do you get the paper delivered to your house in the morning?: nope.
[7] Who checks the mail in your house?: sometimes me, sometimes others.
[8] Do you have a small driveway? no no it's very long.
[9] Do you know anyone with the same ringtone as you? so much justin timberlake. no, no one does.
[10] What do you do first in the morning?: remember dreams, yawn, stumble to the bathroom.
[11] What brand is your printer?: uhhh.....
[12] Do you enjoy fighting with people? not at all.
[13] Is your hair naturally straight or curly? straight.
[14] Who was your kindergarten teacher?: there was a man and a woman and i can't remember either of their names.
[15] Are your teeth crooked?: no.
[16] Are you taller than your mother?: hah, no. sadly.
[17] Do you have a favorite word?: i like words. i can't think of one special one right now.
[18] What color are your bedroom walls?: white.
[19] What do you do to get over a broken heart?: hang out with friends as much as possible and find another guy or a goal to focus on.
[20] Do you have a deep dark secret?: nah.
[22] Do you enjoy writing in colored pens?: sure.
[23] Does anything hurt on your body right now?: my eyes because i don't have my contacts in.
[24] Do you often cry during movies?: yeah i suppose so.
[25] Do you hate your life?: no.
[26] Do you get mad easily?: maybe inwardly for a second and then i forget about it. unless it's something worth being mad about.
[28] What is your biggest pet peeve?: ignorance. selfishness.
[29] What is your away message?: i don't have one.
[30] Do any of your friends have kids?: yeah.
[32] Who should pay on the first date?: maybe the guy the first time. then split it or let me pay now and then. i like not having to pay though. who doesn't?
[33] How many years older than you are you willing to date?: up to 15 probably. not at this point though, it'd have to be later.
[34] Do you have any friends?: hah, yes.
[35] Do you have any mean friends?: sometimes.
[36] What is the ugliest color in your opinion?: puke green.
[37] Have you ever liked someone who all your friends couldn't stand?: yeah.
[38] Have you ever felt like driving off a cliff?: definitely.
[39] Have you ever been fired from a job?: yeah but it's a long story.
[40] What year was your house built?: only like 4-5 years ago, i think.
[41] When was the last time you slept in someone elses bed?: allie's bed in santa cruz.
[42] What brand are the pant/jeans you're wearing right now? victoria's secret yoga pants.
[43] How tall are you?: 5'4''
[44]what is the closest green object?: on my comforter
[45] What is on your feet?: socks
[48] Do you want to have kids?: yeah i think so.
[49] How many years apart are you and your next sibling?: 2 1/2
[50] Who is the friend you would never expect to be gay?: i don't know because i don't expect it.
[52] Whats your mothers middle name?: georgette.
[53] Stupidest movie you ever saw?: cabin fever, but i love it for being the worst movie ever.
[54] Do you collect comic books?: no i have some though.
[55] Do you look like your dad?: for the most part.
[56] Do you have any TV shows on DVD?: all 5 of alias, arrested development 1&2, desperate housewives 2, the oc 1&2, house 2, and grey's anatomy 1.
[57] Are you wearing makeup?: not now. it's midnight.
[58] Do you have a tattoo?: 1 infinity on my ankle
[59] Are you happily in love/married?: nope.
[60] You win the lottery you: go on vacation.
[61] How many pairs of underwear do you have: more than i can count.
[62] Is there something you want to tell someone but you dont?: always.
[61] Do you know how to draw: sort of.
[63] Who is your hero: edie sedgwick is my love. not a hero though.
[64] Who'd you last IM: oh man probably cal hella long ago.
[65.] Do you work a lot of hours?: 30-35 a week.
[66] What do you do when you are stressed out?: sleep, cry, eat junk food.
[67] Who was the last person that called you?: megan
[68] Is there anything you regret?: sure.
[69] Do you know where your family name originated from?: bunting is probably british.
[70] Is there any animal that creeps you out?: bugs. and spiders.

1. Why'd you get a Myspace in the first place?: ethan asked me to.
2. Did you have a babysitter as a child?: yup, relatives and a girl named amelia.
3. If your life was a movie, would anyone watch it?: not at this point. it isn't interesting enough.
4. Do you own an expensive pair of headphones?: no.
5. When was the last time you had ice cream?: earlier today i had fro yo.
6. Ever climbed up a street pole?: no. it's sleek.
7. What is one place you wouldn't want to end up alone at in the middle of the night?: on the subway in new york city at 4am with just the bums, addicts, and people going home from bars. oh wait, i did that. alone.
8. Don't you hate it when a band doesn't include the lyrics in their CD insert?: i dont care.
9. Do you still have clothes from when you were little?: no.
10. Current mood: getting tired.
11. Why are you in that mood?: because it's late.
12. Why do you think most survey sites are run by middle-class teenage girls?: i have no idea.
13. If you were stranded on a deserted island, who is one person you would NOT want to be stuck with?: george w. bush. i would end up killing him and eating him.
14. Are you easy to please?: i think so. just show you care.
15. What kind of internet connection do you have?: cable
6. Have you ever set fire to anything before? nothing that would cause mayhem.
17. Have you ever ended up liking any of the assigned reading books from your english class?: lots of times.
18. Which are more annoying.. whiny scenesters or wannabe gangsta thugs?: whiny scenesters. maybe.
19. Do you take offense easily?: yeah kinda.
20. What did you do the last time you hung out with friends? saw Factory Girl with megan.
21. Do you think that people will ever manage to find a cure for all illnesses?: not ALL illnesses.
22. Have you ever tried making a movie?: when i was little.
23. Do you turn off the water while you brush your teeth?: yeah.
24. What's the worst (real) band name you can think of?: fall out boy. wtf?! or HINDER. lame.
25. Do you prefer The Daily Show or The Colbert Report?: BOTH. i love jon and steven. i would marry them in a heartbeat.
26. Do you feed the seagulls when you go to the beach?: yeah sometimes. i chase them too.
27. Who's one friend you wish you could get back in touch with?: megan czahar and maggie bagley.
28. Do you know anyone who's in college?: of course.
29. Has your school ever been in the news?: only cause of all the deaths that keep happening!
30. Is airline food really that bad?: yuck.
31. Do you refuse to leave the house during the summer because it's too hot?: no!
32. Do you remember Face from Nick Jr.?: of course.
33. Did you even watch Nick Jr.: yeah but i was ashamed because i wasnt a BABY!
34. Do you have a backyard? it's tiny.
35. Has your basement ever flooded?: no basement
36. What's your favorite way to procrastinate?: this.
37. What is your favorite stereotype?: white lame gangsta wannabes. funny stuff.
38. Do you completely lose track of time during summer vacation?: sometimes!
39. When was the last time you had deja vu?: i dont remember.
40. What do you think of PETA?: cool.
41. Do you have a crazy landlord?: not at all. i never see him!
42. Have you ever ran for the ice cream truck?: when i was little.
43. Do you actually give thanks for anything on Thanksgiving?: of course.
44. Have you ever been in a parade?: yes when i was little! rose and santa parades.
45. Are you loud and opinionated?: not too much.
46. Would you ever consider being a pilot?: i guess. it would be very cool to fly! maybe cal will just take me. he knows what he's doing.
47. Catchiest commercial jingle: sooooo many.
48. Do you think forced community/military service would instill a sense of patriotism in you?: no!
49. Have you ever been to the Best Page in the Universe?: no?
50. What was the most anticlimactic ending you've ever come across?: this.

Oh Now I'm Done Believing You. You Don't Know What I'm Feeling. I'm More Than What You Made Of Me.

So Lauren brought to my attention that I TOTALLY CALLED FORREST WHITTAKER WINNING... like eight months ago. So FERAY! Hahaha, I'm a winner.

Oh man I cannot wait to move to LA. I'm starting to get that feeling that I never used to have. The one where I actually want to leave Santa Rosa. I was never one of those people that needed to get out and leave their parents and get as far from SR as humanly possible. I kinda like it here. But I am super excited to go. It's an all new life THAT I NEED right now. I wish I had more distractions right now. I can't stop thinking about Ethan slutting about and how I used to be like that last time we broke up and he called me a slut and now I'm just looking back and thinking HA! If anything I just need some guy to distract me from him lusting over people that aren't me. Sure I'm jealous and all that because this time it's different and it sucks. I don't want him to be over me. I want him to remember how great we were as a couple before we broke up. And then again, even if he did miss me and want me back I most likely wouldn't do it so the whole thing is just ridiculous and pointless. I just miss him telling me that I had his heart and that he loved me and that he could see himself marrying me. Why am I not that girl anymore? And why do I care so much? Guh. My point is: I need a distraction. Find me one!

I wish I didn't have school. It seems so pointless right now because I'm not into it at all. Maybe someday, when or if acting doesn't work out, and I come home, school will be my decision. But now I'm just hating it.

Last night's dream:
I'm in Greece and the only person besides my friends that are there that speak English. (Though I'm sure many Greek people speak English.) I remember Ethan being there and wanting me back and we hooked up and then I met this other guy that was GORGEOUS and into me so I was stuck and didn't know what to do but I think I went for the other guy. There was basketball, throwing around a stuffed baby, and boats and a lake involved in the dream as well. It was a long dream and I also remember watching a British music television station where the Scottish chick from Ugly Betty was hosting. I went to bed really drunk so that was probably why I dreamt crazily.
.Stephanie.