When You Ask Me What I Want This Year And I Try To Make It Kind And Clear.

So I'm kind of having a hard time in school. Like at this point I just hope I pass my classes. But the one class I hate most is MATH. I can't stand it. I just can't. I have never liked math. It's just the absolute worst class for me. I can't understand the easy concepts but when it comes to harder stuff I can do it? WTF?!?!? And since the easy things are in every problem I fuck it up in some way. I am just horrible at it. I know I have to do it someday but I hate it right now. It's not math time. It probably never will be but I need summer. I need a break. I need to drop my math class. GAH. It makes me aggravated and worried and stressed out all the time. I think it's the cause for my downfall in my other classes. Honestly I sound like I'm making this into a bigger deal than it is but to me.... I don't know what to do. It's so much work and every single day I have to go and I've missed a lot because of how much I hate it and I want to wait. Again. Another semester. I realized I'll have to be at the JC for three years anyway and I hate hella slots to fill with classes so it's ok if I have to repeat it.
Ok. I need to. That's IT. I know people will think I'm a slacker or a loser or unrational but to me it makes sense. I need to wait again. FOUR CLASSES IS A LOT. It really really is. Especially when you have lab to go along with it.
Whew. I feel a little better. I can still get a W until the 29th. K.
.Stephanie.